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Again, again, again. Not again. My heart thuds against my chest as your words echo inside my mind. Deployment. That word has belonged to others for so long that I barely recognize it in my repertoire of vocabulary. As much as I want to fight against the thought of it, a slow recognition filters through the panic. A remembrance of who you are and why you do what you do. A moment of clarity and the positives come flooding in to ease my mind. I've had you home for so long. We are strong and our bond is tighter than it ever has been. The relationship you have with our children is solid. It isn't going to be as long as it could be and it could be in a far more dangerous place. We can do this again. We have time to prepare for this. My love will wait for you again and again and again.
STOP
No editing, no back-tracking, just write for five minutes.
Quietly Ruminating on my Again~
Jhona O.
Again, again, again. Not again. My heart thuds against my chest as your words echo inside my mind. Deployment. That word has belonged to others for so long that I barely recognize it in my repertoire of vocabulary. As much as I want to fight against the thought of it, a slow recognition filters through the panic. A remembrance of who you are and why you do what you do. A moment of clarity and the positives come flooding in to ease my mind. I've had you home for so long. We are strong and our bond is tighter than it ever has been. The relationship you have with our children is solid. It isn't going to be as long as it could be and it could be in a far more dangerous place. We can do this again. We have time to prepare for this. My love will wait for you again and again and again.
STOP
No editing, no back-tracking, just write for five minutes. Quietly Ruminating on my Again~
Jhona O.
Glad you shared.
ReplyDeleteThank you:)
DeleteYou are a strong person and have COURAGE. So don't let the little word deployment bother you. Of place to be deployed he is going to not such a bad one and for not too long. (trying to be optomistic). You have us friends to talk to and lean on.
ReplyDeleteI appreciate and NEED your optimism. Yes, there are many silver linings:)
DeleteI'm so sorry you're going through this! Thank you for serving our country - and even with a shred of gladness. Said a prayer after reading this for your husband, you, and your children.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, Genevieve. Your words brought gladness to my heart!
DeleteOh sister....my heart aches for you and Doug. I had a deep down feeling this was coming soon. BUT..you are right..there are so many positives to be thankful for. AND..you have an awesome support system who loves you and will be praying for you and Doug. AND..if you ever need us we are only a 12 hour drive away. AND..God will go before Doug and prepare him and prepare you and the kids. He has been so faithful these past couple years and knew you needed that time to solidify your family and create and un-breakable bond.
ReplyDeleteLove you guys so much!!
I loved all of your "ANDS". You are super and I am so blessed to have you as my sister. We can't wait to visit you guys. Love you too!
DeleteIt is such a courageous thing you do. Prayers for all of you.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Katherine. You are always so kind and encouraging. Thank you for your prayers!
DeleteI applaud your sacrifice, your faith and your determination.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Bethany:)
DeletePraying for you my friend.
ReplyDeleteI so appreciate your prayers:) Thank you!
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